I must admit it, the touches are tinglier too!
It’s naughty but I don’t mind sharing my little secret with you. To hell with the haters and nay-sayers! They don’t know what I’ve been through. And I needed this so much!
It actually keeps me sane. Without it, I’d be climbing walls!
The funny bit is, I’ve done more with my secret FWB in three months than I ever did with my spouse in a decade.
Despite our brief encounters together, we get to experience everything we don’t experience at home. That’s why our meetings are so precious.
There’s so much more freedom. Those bizarre marital restrictions are removed.
Yes, I tried communication, couple’s therapy, date nights, but nothing worked. My married life became too tangled to unravel.
This wasn’t the life I expected to live when I married my partner all those years ago. Monogamy was the dream. It’s just it didn’t work out that way.
If it weren’t the arrangement, her life would be as sexless as mine. We crave human touch but our spouses are always absent. They live with us but they’re not with us. They ran out of excuses and we ran out of explanations for them… and for ourselves.
It’s complicated for an outsider to understand but not to us.
Before this affair, my marriage was suffering in the worst of ways.
I had to embrace accept defeat or make a change. It was up to one of us to break the routine and so I did.
Dog or not, I improved things by altering my behavior. Now I’m happy and so is my wife. I don’t look to Samantha for that anymore and she likes it that way.
My sex-friend and I love our spouses, we just didn’t want their ice anymore. She and I wanted some fire!
Are we too demanding? Are our spouses shunning us over our weird requests to want sex more than once or twice a year?
No, I don’t think so.
And we’re quite vanilla in that way. There are no paddles or chains. In our secret world we hug, kiss and make out like smitten teenagers. There are no strange kinks. Most of what we wanted was to feel human again. Sex completes us.
The problem is solved by hooking up with each other. Two marriages are happy because of it.
Would I tolerate this behaviour from my wife?
Ten years ago I’d have said no but now I’m not so sure. Happiness for me required a change in behaviour to be able to move forward. Change can help if we expand our minds and put trust in love rather than sex.
It’s unlikely Sam would rationalize it the way I did. Nevertheless, I’d take her request to find a more suited bed-partner seriously. It’s only fair, right?
Who am I kidding? She wouldn’t think like that. She doesn’t need sex.
Books do it for her.
Reading is more than enough. We’ve a growing library on her side of the bed and I’m not worth placing a bookmark into any of their pages for a moment of romance.
She’s asexual. That’s all that’s left to say. Of course, she says it’s something else.
Sometimes it’s about an illness, or tiredness, work, me, her, bad timing – but one time we were on holidays and then she said she needed a break from sex too. (How can anyone take a break from something they don’t do?)
She’s naive – a devoted, old-world Catholic. With Faith and nothing else, everything happens by the Grace of God. This means pregnancy is impossible – unless it’s Immaculate.
That’s why we have three healthy teenage-sized libraries of books instead of children. It’s also why I outsourced intimacy and allowed my wife to read alone, free from distraction.
And then six women died in mysterious circumstances. It was all over the news. Maybe you know one of them.
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Five Random Victims
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“Forman’s writing style is artful, with the protagonist Mitchell’s warped thought processes masterfully exposed. The author has a powerful and vivid command of language and his word pictures are stark and disturbingly real.”– Linda J Bettenay, author of ‘Secrets Mothers Keep’ and ‘Wishes For Starlight’.